Maybe it’s the weather? Here in Virginia, it’s been very mild for January. There have been several days where it’s been above 65 degrees. Now, in the middle of the month, it’s settling back down to chilly and cold. It’s been hovering around 40-45 degrees in the last few days.
I feel like a big failure. I set so many goals at the beginning of the month, and I feel like I’ve already failed all of them.
I mean, how hard is it to write two blog posts a week? But, every night since January 2nd, especially work nights, I’ve come home and not wanted to look at another computer screen. But, at the same time, I’ve watched hours of TV with Al, and buried my nose in Facebook on my phone or games on my iPad. It’s like my brain went into default decompression every night.
I didn’t look at my emails for at least a week, and there were more than 1,000 by the weekend after New Year’s.
And I feel really bad even writing this out – I have NOTHING to complain about. I have my husband and my dogs. I’m not running on fragmented sleep like many I know – Parents, caregivers, those with chronic illnesses, and others. I have it easy.
I know this is part of my anxiety lying to me, but I feel a bit better now getting it out on “paper.”
Writing this short post has actually helped a lot, believe it or not. This is part of the reason why I write. I “brain dump” – I talk it out, I use Post-It Notes at work, and I have my phone close by to use the Notes app. I think getting back into journaling – Actual handwriting – is a good goal for February. I’m involved with enough screens as it is.
In fact, after I finish this post, I’m shutting off all the screens and going to dive back into Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban!
Thank the blogger (s) who nominated you and provide a link back to their blog.
List the rules and display an award logo on your blog.
Answer the 11 questions the blogger (s) asked you.
Nominate 11 other bloggers to receive the award and notify them by commenting on any of their posts.
Ask the nominees 11 new questions.
Kristian’s Questions
What fictional world would you like to explore if you could?
What is your idea of a perfect day?
If you could be a professional athlete in any sport, what sport would you play?
What is your favorite joke?
What movie(s) can you watch over & over again?
What are your New Year resolutions, and if you don’t have any, what are some long term goals you hope to achieve?
Is there a meaning behind your name? If so, what is it?
If you could master one skill, what would that skill be?
What is your favorite Disney movie?
In your opinion, what movie has the best soundtrack?
What snack(s) can’t you live without?
Laura Beth’s Answers
Hogwarts!
A perfect day starts with a cup of coffee, cuddle time with Al, carve out time for writing (fiction and blogging), an hour or more for reading, a comfy blanket, and at least one episode of Law and Order: SVU.
I would love to play softball!
My favorite joke is: Helvetica and Times New Roman walk into a bar. “Get out of here!” The bartender shouts. “We don’t serve your type!”
I can watch Ghostbusters (1984), Dirty Dancing (1987), Forrest Gump, Star Wars: The Force Awakens, and pretty much any movie with Tom Hanks over and over.
Here are some of my 2020 Goals: Complete the first round of editing of my first novel, pay off all credit card debt, de-clutter the entire house, and go on vacation with Al for our five-year wedding anniversary!
I was named Laura Beth after my great-grandmother, Laura Bethany Powers. She lived to be 102!
I would love to master flight.
My favorite Disney movie is Mulan.
The movie that has the best soundtrack is Star Wars IV: A New Hope.
I love popcorn, tortilla chips with white sauce, and Reese’s!
My Questions
If you’ve been to a Disney theme park, which one is your favorite?
What song is your favorite earworm?
If you could go to any school, real or fictional, which one would you pick?
If you could travel anywhere in the world for a week, where would you go? You can pick multiple destinations.
What is your favorite quote?
What is the best piece of advice you’ve been given?
If you could eat only three foods for the rest of your life, what would you pick?
Do you see yourself living somewhere else?
Where is your dream vacation destination?
Which three authors would you like to have dinner with?
If you could interview anyone, who would you pick?
Tag – You’re It!
I’m not tagging anyone for this particular award. If you want to do it, then go for it!
Publish all outstanding Tag posts where I’ve been tagged. — Did not accomplish.
Make at least one thrift store run. — Accomplished!
Write at least two Book Reviews. — Accomplished!
Clear more clutter. — Accomplished!
Work in my office for an hour each weekend. — Did not accomplish.
Clean out the cabinet above the oven. — Did not accomplish.
Sponsor Christmas gifts for two local children. — Accomplished!
Start my spreadsheet for cataloging all my American Girl items to sell. — Did not accomplish.
Celebrate Phineas and Ferb’s Gotcha Day! — Accomplished!
Enjoy Al’s company holiday party. — Accomplished!
Participate in my P.E.O. chapter’s gift wrapping fundraiser. — Accomplished!
Enjoy Christmas! — Accomplished!
Enjoy New Year’s! — Accomplished!
December was far busier and a bit more stressful than I would have liked. I didn’t write here on the blog very much, but I’m grateful for what I did accomplish. I had several meltdowns, but it was all because of my need to control and acting like I could handle everything. The truth is – I can only handle so much. Thankfully, Al was off work for most of the month, and I eased a lot of my anxiety (after the meltdowns happened) by asking him to help with the dishes and laundry when I was at work. In turn, I was less stressed going into Christmas.
Not to say that Christmas wasn’t stressful! We found ourselves at the emergency vet with Ferb on Christmas Eve. Thankfully, he’s okay. He gave us a good scare. He got overly nervous and stressed with all the activity and home improvement project noise in the house for the several days leading up to Christmas Eve. We had some medication left over when Phineas experienced similar symptoms last May, and one dose helped get things back to normal. Our vet is also wonderful – He called us the day after Christmas, after the office closed, and offered to get us the medication to the pharmacy closest to our house if we truly needed it. That one bottle cost us $13.50 on December 27th, and it’s like gold to us. We will always keep some on hand!
We hosted Christmas breakfast and opened gifts. We went to my parents for Christmas dinner, and had a wonderful time with family and friends. I was grateful to have a few days off during Christmas week, and then a day and a half off this week for New Year’s.
I read and reviewed three books this month: Janesville: An American Story, The Stolen Sapphire: A Samantha Mystery, and Paper Girls Volume 1.
I also started reviewing the first draft of my novel in PDF form – I’m almost done. I’m looking forward to printing it out this weekend, and starting to edit by hand. I also received incredible feedback from my friend and fellow writer, Mike H., and can’t wait to dive into his comments.
2. Thank the person that tagged you and link to their post. (who tagged me??? IDK! but i do know i saw Marie did this tag and that’s probably where i tagged myself)
3. TAG AS MANY SWIFTIES AS YOU WANT! (Or non-Swifties, maybe inspire them to listen to our Queen)
1. I FORGOT THAT YOU EXISTED: A BOOK THAT YOU WANT TO FORGET YOU EVER READ
1. How many times have you participated in NaNoWriMo? How many times have you won?
This will be my ninth NaNoWriMo. I have participated in five NaNoWriMo sessions in November (2012, 2013, 2014, 2018, and 2019). I have also participated in four Camp NaNoWriMo sessions (Twice in 2018 and twice in 2019).
2. Are you a pantser or a plotter?
Historically, I have been a pantser. This year, I started plotting the beginning of the novel.
3. What are the titles of the projects that you have attempted/completed for past NaNos?
2012: Experiences From Camp
2013: Specialton
2014: Discussion of Differences
Camp NaNoWriMo, April 2018: Continued draft of Experiences From Camp
Camp NaNoWriMo, July 2018: Continued draft of Experiences From Camp
2018: Tunnel Vision
Camp NaNoWriMo, April 2019: Continued draft of Specialton
Camp NaNoWriMo, July 2019: Continued draft of Discussion of Differences
2019: The Transformation House
4. What are you working on for NaNo this year?
I am writing a new novel about a woman, Angela Diaz, who decides to purchase a mansion, fix it up, and create a home for transgender people in the Midwest.
5. What is one tip that you’d give to someone else that is participating in NaNo?
I agree with what All Things Momma said: “Do not have any zero days. Even if you write only one sentence that day, that is so much better than having a big fat zero on your NaNo chart. Any progress forward is better than none.”
6. What was the inspiration for this novel? Do you remember when the inspiration hit you?
I listen to the StoryCorps podcast. In honor of the 50th Anniversary of the Stonewall uprising, they created a podcast series, and an initiative called “Stonewall Out Loud.” One of the episodes discussed a home for transgender people in Little Rock, Arkansas (“We’re Still Here”). I wanted to write a story that encompasses a modern version of this effort.
7. Read us the first sentence from your NaNo novel last year?
“No, no, no! Damn it!” Nicole smacked her hands against the steering wheel.
8. What do you plan to do with your manuscript after NaNo?
Like all my other novels, I will let this draft rest for a while. I might pick it up again during Camp NaNoWriMo, April 2020. It depends on how much progress I make this month.
9. Are you prepared for NaNo? Are you nervous?
I always get a little nervous. But, I’m ready to dive in.
Will you be participating in NaNoWriMo this November?
Continue my fun Writing Prompt series, publishing one every Friday in October. — Accomplished!
Celebrate multiple birthdays! — Accomplished!
Volunteer at the blood drive. — Accomplished!
Publish all outstanding Tag posts where I’ve been tagged. — Did not accomplish.
Participate in decorating duffel bags for local children in foster care. — Accomplished!
Celebrate my church’s 50th Anniversary. — Accomplished!
Make at least one thrift store run. — Did not accomplish.
Prep for NaNoWriMo 2019. — Accomplished!
Celebrate the 35th Anniversary of Ghostbusters. — Accomplished!
Send cards to several friends. — Did not accomplish.
Research area rugs for the living room. — Did not accomplish.
Try some new recipes. — Accomplished!
Test-bake the cookies for the upcoming Cookie Exchange with my P.E.O. chapter. — Did not accomplish.
Read every night before bed. — Semi-Achieved.
Enjoy Halloween! — Accomplished!
October was a jam-packed month! I was able to volunteer at the blood drive, and I was also able to give a pint! Turns out that my Power Red donation in August was only counted as one unit because of some complications I experienced. So, I was eligible to donate in October, rather than having to wait until December to give again. I learned this week that my pint of blood went to the University of Virginia (UVA) Medical Center in Charlottesville.
I’m very excited to kick off NaNoWriMo 2019! I’m writing something new, and it’s something out of my comfort zone. Stay tuned!
We celebrated my mom’s birthday during the first weekend of October. Then, Nick and Savy’s anniversary and Mia’s birthday in the middle of the month! We also went to a fun Spooky Brunch during the weekend of the 12th, where we ate amazing food, watched The Nightmare Before Christmas and Beetlejuice, and enjoyed each other’s company.
The church’s 50th Anniversary was incredible. More than two years of work by many people came together in a wonderful weekend. The combined service on Sunday was packed – It was easily 500 people. We had several former pastors attend. All the musical groups performed together – Children’s choir, chancel choir, handbell choir. The catered lunch afterwards was delicious as well.
The significant new recipe I tried was Greek Chicken Bowls. Delicious! And it fed us for lunch for a week!
As I ease into the first round of editing of the first draft of my first novel, this post struck a chord with me. I’m grateful for my friends who have already provided feedback on the first draft, and I’m eagerly awaiting a few more to chime in with their thoughts. Thank you, Melissa, Amanda, Janaye, Hannah, and Mike.
It’s also gotten me think about my characters’ backstories in my three other novels.
What is important?
What may not be important?
Did I leave anything out?
I really liked the example the author gave with a character’s fear of spiders. On the surface, it could be a minor detail. But, that fear can also be developed into something significant, involving the main story and potential conflict. It changes from something minor to something major.
And, as I prepare to start my fifth novel during NaNoWriMo next month, I’m keeping this post in my back pocket.
As the wonderful season of autumn / fall has started, I wanted to create an original writing prompt series to celebrate!
I invite everyone who sees this to participate, if you choose.
The idea is to look at the prompt, take at least five minutes on the Fridays during October 2019, and come up with a story/poem/scene, or whatever strikes your fancy with those words.
This has been extended from September! You can use the image at the top of this post – Just please make sure to credit it.
Ready?
Here we go!
October 4th: Corn Maze
October 11th: Hay Ride
October 18th: Football
October 25th: Halloween
As a child, Scotty always looked forward to the annual trip to the farm in the fall. Among the pumpkins, petting zoo, and scarecrows, his favorite thing was the hay ride.
He wasn’t alone. The hay ride was fun for many. The farmer climbed on his lumbering tractor. Scotty loved the sounds it made. The hay was itchy, but everyone had fun. They were supposed to sit on the bales and stay still while the tractor was moving. But, inevitably, a hay fight would break out. The boys loved stuffing the loose hay down each other’s shirts, and it would tangle in all the girls’ hair. The teachers were always annoyed, but the farmer always chuckled. He loved kids.
And Scotty loved someone. Kelly was a girl in the other kindergarten class, but their classes usually ended up on the same field trips.
In kindergarten, Scotty was brave enough to walk over to Kelly, sit next to her, and compliment her overalls.
In first grade, Kelly threw hay right in Scotty’s face. But then she giggled, apologized, and kissed him on the cheek.
In second grade, Scotty held her hand during the “haunted” section when she got scared.
In third grade, Scotty was hurt. Kelly ignored him the whole time.
In fourth grade, Kelly apologized, and they shared their first kiss. Everyone was agog.
As fifth grade started, Scotty was sad. Kelly had told him over the summer that she was moving away. Her dad, who was in the Coast Guard, was getting stationed across the country. She left the week before school started. Scotty kissed her cheek, and she held his hand before she climbed in the giant moving van.
The week the field trip happened, Scotty was really down. Going to the farm just wasn’t the same anymore.
The day before the trip, Scotty’s eyes brightened when he got home from school. Another letter had arrived from Kelly. She talked about how beautiful it was in Washington state, but she missed school, her friends, Scotty, and the farm.
Scotty felt tears in his eyes as photos fell out of the envelope. Someone had taken photos at the farm every year, and there was a photo of them, together, during every hay ride.
He smiled, and asked his mom to frame them. She smiled, nodded, and Scotty had them in his room for years.
He never forgot about Kelly.
Those photos faded a bit over the years. But, they were still framed as they headed toward Scotty’s rehearsal dinner. Everyone oohed and aahed over childhood photos of the bride and groom.
Scotty smiled at his bride-to-be, looking gorgeous. He couldn’t wait to soak up every minute with her tonight, and then party the night away tomorrow.
There were hay bales everywhere. His bride smiled, and playfully threw a handful of loose hay in his face after the rehearsal dinner.
“I love you, Scotty.”
He dipped his head and kissed her. There was hay tangled in her hair. She was thrilled – She could hardly believe it. She still wore overalls, and was more in love with Scotty than ever.
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